Woe

The whole 'not being able to post from my Mac at home' thing is getting old. I had a royal bitch worked up all weekend about emotional eating and exhaustion and the stress of the happy family, and now I've forgotten it all. So much the better for you, eh? Which leaves me with the easy way out - the Numbered List.

1. Tonight I start Week 3 of the C25K plan and I admit I'm a bit nervous because it's a big leap in total running time. I think I can do it though, and there is simply no better day to try because it's cool and lovely here today, and maybe there might be rain in the forecast. One of my most eye-roll worthy characteristics is that I freak out a little when there are drought conditions. I think it was all those years I spent talking to trees and trying to hear their heartbeat as a child. I was a tree freak and so when things start dying I get a little cranky. And no, before you ask, I don't actually hear them talk. I was just an oversensitive child. *g*

2. I passed The Big Boss today at lunch. He was running around the university and I was driving back to work. The man goes as slow as I do! Granted, he's about forty years older than I am, but he's been running for years. How sad is it that it made me feel like less of a loser to see him plodding along? Wait, don't answer that.

3. My goal for tomorrow is to get Amy to help me put my bike in her car and take it to have the tires inflated. I want to be able to ride the bike on my running off days. Nothing much - just enough to make sure that I get some exercise in. I'm also going to try to develop a weight training routine that I can do from home. If I can ever find my blasted leg weights, that is. I'm still worried about my poor knees and I keep reading about how strengthening your quads will help, so I'm all for that.

4. To say that I am tired today would be the gravest understatement. I am whittled down to the bone, emotionally and mentally, and I am looking forward to tonight's run just to exhaust myself physically as well. I like it when my whole person is on the same page. I actually left work at lunch today and went home to take a nap. Despite that, I still feel slumped and heavy-headed and heavy-hearted. I think my month of overactivity and too much company are finally catching up with me. Because truth be told I need a lot of alone time. I have spent much of my life feeling guilty about this - as if it shows that I am fundamentally uncaring - but I'm almost 30, darnit, I'm not feeling bad about it any more. I require solitude, and a lot of it, and when I don't get it I end up like I am right now: cranky and tired and short-tempered.

5. I promise to be better company tomorrow.